Amazing mama trait #4

Our ability to give birth

Not a day goes by that I dont look at my children starry eyed and amazed that they were once so small that they fit in my belly.

The little man will be three next week. THREE!

When I look back upon my labor with him I am just relived that it did not turn out any worse. I am not saying it was bad, I am just saying I got sucked into the birth trap and things could of gone wrong real quick.
I was 20 when I gave birth to the little man. We attended birthing classes. I read some books. I felt prepared. I thought a natural child birth was just going to come well, naturally.
When my doctor said that she would induce me, I was all for it. She never explained to me the risks. I just assumed that since she was the doctor and she knew best.

I had no fears about being induced.

After about eight hours of medicated, medically induced labor I gave birth to a healthy little boy. In that second I became a mama.


In between the time after the little man was born and before I got pregnant with the little lady I did more research on birth. Its not that I had an horrible experience giving birth to the little man, I just wanted something different.

My birth experience with the little lady was amazing, you can read the whole thing here.


The way that my children came into this world did not make me love them any differently. I am just glad that I was able to bring them into this world.

Just waiting

I find myself say that often.
...at the grocery store.
...at the mall.
...to people I hardly know.
...to close friends and family.

Pretty much everywhere I go and everyone that I talk to.

The little man asks me at least everyday when the little lady is coming and all I can say is
... just waiting.

He will lift up my shirt and talk into my bellybutton. "Come out I want to see you." I almost want to cry and than he gives her a kiss and than the tears start to flow.

I hope that the love that he is showing to his sister stays. One can only hope.


... her diapers are waiting


... her bed is waiting.


... her clothes are waiting.


... her car seat is waiting.


... her brother and family are waiting.

Fly

Its a bird,



Its a plane,



Nope, its the little man.



The little man loves his new cape that his grandma made for him. He now flies around saving the day.

Speaking of flying. Today marks one month till my due date. Some hopefully in a month (or less) I will get to hold and kiss our baby girl.

Father and Son

The little man has always been a mamas boy. I dont have a problem with it but I know that it might become a little problem when the little lady shows up.

So to help him out a little he has been spending more time just him and dad. Sometimes it is just the little things like getting a glass of milk, wiping his bottom or putting on his shoes. Other times it is the bigger things like father son outings, tucking him in to bed and building something with power tools.



As of a few weeks ago when the little man would wake up in the morning he would walk right past daddy to find me. So lately (about every week or so) I have been finding my self gone in the morning before he wakes up. The first few times he would walk all over the house looking for me and than start crying, but yesterday he woke up looked for me, asked about me and was fine. No tears.

Just maybe having another baby is going to be harder on me than the little man. We will have to see. Only time will tell.

Where did the week go?

I feel like all I did was blink my eyes and now it is Saturday afternoon.
I spent lots of time with family, cleaning, dealing with a whining two year old and a little bit of resting.

Tuesday started off real rough. It was the start to the whining that I have heard all week. It started the minute he woke up and went on for almost an hour. Nothing I did made it any better. So after finally getting dressed we made it down to my parents house for my sisters birthday celebration. As soon as we walked in the door the little man said with a big smile on his face 'Grandma I have been whining' and that was the end of the whining for the day.
The little man had fun playing with his cousins, eating junk food and just being a kid. The visit ended up being on the short side because I wanted to make sure the little man got a nap and I had a doctor appointment early that afternoon.
The hubby drove me to my appointment because the little man was passed out in the back seat. My doctor said that the little lady is sitting really low and was a little concerned that she might be helping me to dilate already but that was not the case. I really did not need him to tell me that she is low, I could feel it. I do feel like I am having a lot more contractions with this pregnancy than the last. Just as long as she stays in for at least 3 more weeks that will be fine with me.

Wednesday I was planning on cleaning the house but I was so tired I only got a little done and the rest finished today with some much appreciated help form the hubby.

Thursday I have my moms group so I made this pretty amazing cream cheese coffee cake. After the group the little man got to play with one of his friends for a little while and I got to have even more mom time.

Friday the little man woke up in a mood. At first I thought it was because he was hungry or still tired, but I have no idea. After breakfast he was still whining and after his nap he was still whining.

Is it just a faze or is this just payback for me being a whiny kid? Is it because he knows there is going to be a baby here soon and he just feels the need to whine all the time? I have about 6 weeks or so to find out how to stop the whining, I hope that this is enough time.

I have started reading a book so we will see if maybe that can help me to get him to stop the whining. I need as much help as I can get.

Whats in a name?

Coming up with a name for the bun has been a battle. Every name that I like the hubby hates it and every name that he likes I cant stand. I dont remember it being this hard when we were naming the little man.

Its just a name, right? I once thought that but the more and more I thought about it, it is so much more. It is how you are identified in this world.

There are so many names out there and yet so many people share the same name. I have not met too many Karens but I know there has been many of us that have walked on this earth. Everyone had there own story.

There is nothing wrong with sharing a name with someone else, it is just I dont really want my children having to go to school with 50 other kids with the same name. There is nothing wrong with a common name. I know many people that share names with others that I know and there is nothing wrong with that. (Come to find out the little mans name has gotten pretty popular over the past few years.) If my children do end up going to school with other children with the same name it is not the end of the world.

So when I was looking at names I wanted them to have a little bit of uniqueness to them, but I also did not want them to be to far out there either. It dont believe that you have to have a unique name to stand out. I guess it is just a little way that I can bring my uniqueness into my childs life.

So the bun now has a name. I dont think that we will change it because it is the only one we both agree on. But there is still 8 1/2+ weeks to change our minds. So 'little lady' it will be.

I want to hear your name stories. How did you come up with your childrens names? Or how did your parents come up with your name? I want to know if I am the only one who has had such a hard time.

A package for me

Today just after the little man went down for his nap there was a knock at the door. It was the UPS man with a package for me.
I was very excited.

Inside the package was 6 organic Bummis infant prefolds and a small pink super brite cover. Sent to me because I follow the Bummis blog and I entered a giveaway they were having and I won. This is the first thing that I have ever won that I know I will really use. Thank you Bummis.


Now I am just playing the waiting game to see how they are going to look on her bottom. I will try to remember to update in March on how they work.

What I have been up to

I have been neglecting my blog but not my house.

Since the news that I received on Monday we have finally really started to get our house together. We are changing our back storage room into the little mans room so that when the bun gets here she can have his smaller room (not like she will use it right away anyway). So this means getting rid of a bunch of "stuff," reorganizing (well really just organizing everything in the first place)and lots and lots of shredding.

The back room is now empty. Ready to get the door put in and than painted (if we can ever decide on a paint color). We still need to pick up a mattress for the little mans new 'big bed' and than his room will be mostly complete.

Our new storage room/ office/ music room still needs some work. The drums have found a temporary home, we sold half of our desk on Craigslist (along with everything else that we can live without) and very soon this room will be in order also.

I went through all of the little mans old clothes. I have two overflowing garbage bags and three boxes to give to friends with little boys. One box to take to consignment and one more over flowing garbage bag for the Goodwill.

Today I am off to the consignment shop and Goodwill. Maybe I will find something pink that I just cant live with out.

It is a...

Girl.

Whats your guess!?!

Take a guess. Am I having another boy or will it be a girl?

I want to know what you think.

I will hopefully find out on Monday. And so will all of you.

I have been knitting

I finished two knitting projects last week and one the week before.

Two weeks ago I made a diaper cover for a friend using this pattern from Ravelry. The pattern is really simple. I have knitted up a few now but I just dont have a baby to try them on yet. I hope that it is a good fit. The medium fit the little man perfectly just over his underwear.

I also knitted up this hat for a friend at church. Another simple pattern. I would say that the hat runs a little big. I am thinking of making one for myself but I will have to adjust the pattern a little so that it fits my head.

I also knitted the little man this cookie monster hat.

He really wanted a cookie hat but once I had it finished he wanted nothing to do with it. I can get him to wear it when he goes outside. I just knitted it with some cheep acrylic yarn that I had. I did not really follow a pattern. It is a little big, and the eyes look supper silly, but we were out a few days ago and a lady I did not know knew that it was cookie monster so that made me feel good. I might have to try doing another one that looks a little better.

My needles are now empty so I guess it is time to start something new. Something for me, the little man, the hubby or the bun I just cant decide. If I am going to start anything for the bun I should wait until next Monday when I should find out what it is. So maybe I should start a hat for me or maybe venture out ant try some socks.

Getting back into the swing

It has been so long since I have blogged I have almost forgot how. I thought it would be like swimming. I guess I just need to jump in and not look back.
The little man went back to sleep this morning after waking at 8:30am and slept until noon. It was nice to have a morning to get some house work done that I has neglected yesterday when I was not feeling well.
So with waking at noon he did not take a nap so he was down for the night at 8pm. I dont think that he has ever gone to sleep this early ever.
I will end with a picture I just have to share. Everyone out there with a toddler can relate.

I am back

Since it has been over 5 months since I have posted I should do some recapping.
The little man is growing like a weed. He is now two with a whole head full of blond curls (I dont know if I should leave them or cut then?).



The hubby is still out of work but hopefully he will be getting a job soon. I can only keep praying. He is nice to have around the house but somedays I just dont know what to do.

Well as for me I am a year older and I have a bun in the oven! I am about 11 weeks along and I am feeling great, other than this morning when I threw up a few times. It has been a while since I have had morning sickness but this almost feels a little like a bug of some sort. Than my hubby had to go and tell me about a pregnant women in Puyallup that just died from the swine flu. If I am not paranoid enough.
I am just having fun living life and loving it.